I really have no idea where this is going to go.
With only one day left in the year, there are far too many thoughts rolling around in my head to record them all.
Sitting in the recesses of the notes app on my phone is a moderately long list of topics and thoughts for blog posts that haven’t made it out of my brain yet. They need out. Desperately. But lately it’s been really hard to focus on writing. I fight the actual act of sitting down and writing so adamantly.
Pouring your heart out into words is hard work. It takes effort and energy—both of which are in short supply these days. Just keeping my head above water is all I can do some days.
2016 has been such a weird year.
It’s been a really freeing year.
I gained a tribe of internet friends who have become real-life heart friends.
I got rid of my stuff, moved across the country, and embarked on a journey that has taken me places I never imagined in the last six months.
I found pieces of me that were seemingly lost.
2016 has grown me in remarkable ways that have left me in awe of who I am these days. It’s given me confidence and backbone.
But 2016 has really sucked, too.
Earlier this year, my sister was diagnosed with a rare abdominal cancer. It’s a disease that doctors don’t even really know what to do with.
I’ve been vague and mostly quiet about that aspect of the year, because it isn’t my story to tell. It’s a story that greatly affects me, but it isn’t my story.
This part of the story has required me to take every day on step, one minute, one hour at a time.
I don’t quite know what to do with 2016.
I can’t tie it up with a pretty bow—or even a lopsided one.
I’m anxious to see it go, but grateful for the good moments it brought.
And if I’m completely honest, I’m a bit apprehensive about 2017.
Starting tomorrow, I’m joining a group of new friends (half of whom I haven’t actually met yet) to work through a goal-setting webinar over the next few days. The coming year is full of possibilities—most of which are going to require more leaps of faith off scary cliffs. (And I thought moving to Texas was the hard part. Ha.)
I’ve also been trying to land on my One Word for 2017.
This year’s word (UNBOUND) came out of the blue and gave me a run for my money.
It turned out to be a fairly accurate guide for 2016.
I think I already know what 2017’s word is, but I’m not positive yet.
Or maybe I’m just afraid to declare it…